Something about Nothing

This afternoon my engagement ring had a boo-boo so it’s now at the jewelers being repaired (I knew it would only be a matter of time before I ‘broke’ some part of the ring), and while they were at it I asked them to resize the ring as it was slightly too big, so we went down half a size (though now I’m paranoid about my fingers getting fatter in the future - say by the time we buy our wedding bands!!)

While the jeweler was filling out the paper work for the repair order, Greg and I started to look at wedding bands (for me of course - he already knows what he wants). I want something unique but not too flashy or gaudy. Also, the band has to ‘fit’ the engagement ring by setting type (channel vs. pave), so it was a little more challenging to find what I liked (as we’re more than likely going to go to the same jeweler to purchase our wedding bands). The one ring that I thought was unique enough (for me, though Greg didn’t care too much for it) was about a half carat in weight and set in platinum (which they could order in which gold). Here’s a picture similar to the one I liked:

I made the picture big so all can be seen.

Greg wasn’t too big on this one and he wouldn’t give a valid reason. So, we looked at others and this is my second consideration:

This one isn’t all that unique (by my standards at least) but it almost matches the begets on my engagement ring. Again, these two rings are not the exact ones from the jewelers; these are from Blue Nile.

Either way, I have plenty of time to pick out the perfect ring.

In other news…

I was bored today and decided to clean out my cell phone contact list. There were over 50 numbers of people that I haven’t talked to in over a year, so I deleted them. But, there were a few that I had a split second of hesitation about deleting; one of them being RD. I don’t know why I saved his phone number. I haven’t called him in about two years (nor have we exchanged any emails or messages online). I guess keeping his number was a ‘token’ or reminder of him and the feelings I had. And I thought to myself why I kept his number and I didn’t have a reason; I have no desire to know what happened between us; how’s he’s doing or any of the sort (I know I’ve mentioned that when I lived in Pasadena, I was within a mile of his house and we never ran into each other - not that I was hoping it would happen). It took a few weeks to get over him even though there wasn’t actually anything between us. He was just one of those people I really connected with and it’s so rare to feel a connection as strong as we did (until I met Greg), so I was a little depressed when he, out of the blue, stopped talking to me (in January 2006). Greg knew about RD (as we were friends at the time) and he helped console me when I was blue and we continued our growing friendship and eventually I rarely thought about RD. Then I came to Cop’sphone number; we haven’t seen each other in over a year and a half and he is married (and had a baby this past summer). Cop was someone fun (back then) and he told me he felt a connection with me and asked me if I wanted to leave his wife (they were having problems) so we could be together (as Cop and I only chatted when he was working (6pm to 2am or 2am to 10am; or we would text each other throughout the day and we only got to see each other maybe twice a month due to conflicting times and schedules). I told him no (but when I told this to Greg (aka CopyGuy) he felt a little jealousy). I liked Cop, but it was just physical. I didn’t see him as someone I could really be with. Then there was one other person that I haven’t really thought about, much less talked to, since 2005 - Lee. I’ve never mentioned him in any of the blogs I’ve started (and there are about five). Lee and I go back to 1996!! Just when the internet was becoming insanely popular with chatrooms and the sorts, Lee and I met and our friendship grew over the years. We would chat on the phone and email hourly! Lee is a native American Indian and was living in Arizona and New Mexico (for school) and he had an accent that reminded me of Ed from Northern Exposure (I loved that show). Lee was amazing and I felt that if we ever met in person (and we talked about it) we probably would have been together. Mind you, this was over 10 years ago. Around 2004, Lee found my email address and contacted me! Our friendship rekindled and there were a few sparks going off, but given our schedules and time zone differences (and the fact he was still taking classes part time), we weren’t able to really catch-up and eventually we faded apart… again. I deleted his phone number as well.

Surprisingly, deleting those numbers wasn’t as hard as I thought it could have been. Yes, there was a slight hesitation but no second thoughts after I did it. And thinking about it now, as I write this all out, I don’t have any feelings of “maybe I shouldn’t have deleted his number…”; my future is with Greg and theres no second guessing that; if I were with anyone else (for example, Adam) I would be feeling completely different and probably have a few more new numbers in the phone book. Greg has changed my life. For the better. And it’s great.

While cleaning out my phone book, I came across a number from a guy that I met at Weis. He was a customer that would come in with his Mom and we totally hit it off and exchanged phone numbers. Yeah, the dude is gay so there were no romantic sparks or anything. The guys name is Tony and he was a riot! When ever he came to the store we would gossip about people neither of us knew and talk about so many things! We drifted apart after I left Weis. This evening I sent him a text message and he replied! So we exchanged a few texts and I told him that I would call him tomorrow night to catch-up. I can’t wait to chat with Tony!

Anyway, it’s way past my bed time (12:22am!!) and I should go to bed…