Something about Nothing

I had such a great weekend! Looking back, I was pretty social and had seven visitors to the condo (Sat: Michele and Bobby; Sun: Ken, Greg’s Mom, Sean, Aaron, and Craven)! And to top off the end of a great weekend, Greg surprised me with the purchase of supplies to build a fire in the fireplace! So Sunday evening was spent around the fire as we watched Bridzilla. I had such an amazing Sunday, and weekend in general.

The countdown for Thanksgiving and Christmas has begun (in my world) and I’m starting to get really excited! I can’t wait to put up the Christmas tree and start playing Christmas music and start the shopping and wrapping of the presents and all things related. I don’t know if I mentioned earlier that Greg has taken Nov 20 and 21 off and he will have Amelia all to himself and I hinted that those two days would be good for him to do his Christmas shopping for me.

I remember writing about Greg and his proposal idea and how he’s not sure if it’s romantic and/or memorable enough (for his standards), so as we were talking about this and other engagement ring items on Friday, I thought of a proposal idea that would be romantic and memorable for me (Greg’s concern/issue about his proposal to me is because there isn’t one specific thing that I have for me or us (unlike his ex who has a slightly unhealthy obsession with all things Disney, in my opinion) and that was when Christmas came to mind) and I told Greg if he were able to propose to me on Christmas Eve, after we had placed all the presents under the tree and we had the lights off (except for the lights on the Christmas tree) and had a nice fire going and had the Christmas music playing - to me that would make his proposal very romantic and memorable and would fit with what I am passionate about (in a sense). He took my thought into consideration but doubts he’ll be able to do it since he has to wait for a few things to go through, first, and by the time everything is done Christmas would have passed - unless he plans to propose in Christmas 2008 but I seriously doubt he will wait that long; Greg tells me that he’s the happiest he’s ever been and how much he loves me and how he would never do anything to jeopardize our relationship (since we hung out with Michele and Bobby in their hotel room I asked him about his thoughts on having another couple join us in the bedroom affairs) and doesn’t want to risk loosing me. I don’t think I’ve ever had someone love me as much as he does and I know he’s never loved someone as strong as he does for me and I’ve never loved someone as strong as I do for Greg. I’m telling you, the reader, that being in love with someone is really a scary yet amazing feeling. I know my love for Greg will only grow stronger and stronger. I know that Greg and I will remain with each other until “death do us part” and I’ve never, ever, felt this way for someone.  I get such a euphoric feeling when I think about the relationship Greg and I have.

Loving sigh…

Moving on, it’s been pretty steady today at work. The company sent an email promoting participation for Halloween and dresing up so now I have to come up with an idea of what to wear. I’ve thought about wearing one of Greg’s Hawiian shirts and a pair of short and pretend to be a a Hawiian vactioner but I’m not allowed to wear shorts (boo) so I’ll have to be a little more creative.

Time to put on the thinking cap…

This morning has started off pretty slow, which is nice because it gave me time to catch up on minor work details and banking (to which I saw that my account is in the negative due to an automatic withdrawal from the IRS for my tax payment that I forgot was set up and this is the second time it’s happened). On the plus side, I calculated an estimate of what my October (to date) commission check could be and it was nniiccee; just as much if not a little more (again, to date) than September’s commission. And, I just looked at the November calendar and the 23^rd is a pay day and also Black Friday (a company paid day off as well) and I can shop till my hearts delight with my big ass commission check! Oh yeah!! I’ve looked at the Black Friday ads websites and there isn’t much listed, yet. I am getting really excited about Christmas and all the shopping I’ll be able to do for Greg and Amelia and my friends and family as well as creating the holiday card to mail out to everyone.

Today has been really uneventful; I’m not used to all this ‘down time’ – don’t get me wrong, the down time is nice but harder to adjust to than being constantly busy.

All this down time has allowed my mind to wonder and think about things that I normally wouldn’t think about (I think). I’ve been wondering if I am being selfish in regard to the relationship that Greg and I have. Greg pulls more than his fair share of the responsibilities of being a parent and a lover, or so it seems. I become frustrated, at times, that Greg rarely takes Amelia to daycare or picks her up. I have asked him to do this task but he tells me that he doesn’t want to (and there are other reasons to this than just because he doesn’t want to) which makes me feel that he isn’t being ‘fair’, as well as, not washing her bottles each night. Yet, Greg does more of the ‘little things’, such as changing her diaper more often than me, dressing her in the morning, giving her the baths (unless we decide to wash her in the shower which I usually do with me), carries Amelia up or down the stairs, plus he’s gets up at night when she wakes and begins to fuss, he always takes the trash out and carries all the groceries in when we go shopping, and he makes my lunch, as well as his, each morning while I feed Amelia her breakfast. It seems that I’m bitching over two minor tasks and it looks like Greg does more for Amelia and me than I do for Amelia and him. That is why I feel like I am being selfish. I don’t particularly like this feeling because it then makes me feel guilty. Eh, this could all be brought on by the change in hormones since I am on the last week of active pills… You know, it annoys me (slightly) that I ‘blame’ all these ‘things’ on the birth control but I honestly feel that is the cause and that I may not have these feelings if I wasn’t on birth control. But, I am not willing to take that risk to find out… I know… bitch about something that you’re not willing to change…

Last night as Greg and I were cooking dinner together and he was telling me about his uber busy day at work he mentioned that he had a few minutes to look at some ‘things’ online. At first he was being coy about it and I was playing along then he confirmed that he did a little ring shopping and that he found a ring that he liked until he saw the nearly $6K price tag. I just laughed at him. Then he asked if I wanted to see the ring and I said sure. It was a nice ring with no blemishes when it comes to the four “C’s” but it didn’t stand out for me.  So, I went onto The Knot’s website (again) and showed him (again) the rings that I found of interest. Greg partially paid attention due to Journeyman being on.

To go off subject here, I remember thinking last night when Greg and I were talking about the events of the day and other items that how nice it is to be together and just talk. We didn’t have the TV on, Amelia was already asleep (though she woke up later – around 7:45pm) and that we were together. We were spending time together without any distractions and we were connecting. It’s hard to explain what I’m trying to share but if you know what I mean then you can relate to what I’m trying to explain and understand that it is something hard to describe (or maybe it’s just me).

Now onto something completely different, I am looking forward to this weekend. My girlfriend, Michele, is coming into town and she and her ‘friend’ Bobby are treating Greg and me (along with Amelia) out to dinner at our new favorite restaurant, Ho – So much fun! And on Sunday, Greg’s Mom informed us that she is going to visit and check out the condo! I love having guests over.

Have I mentioned how excited I am about Christmas being right around the corner? I’ve already begun compiling my list of gift ideas for everyone!

Well, it’s taken me all day, again, to write so I am going to conclude this entry and just focus on the tabloid magazines.

I decided that I am going to pay off one of my credit cards and close the account with my commission check next week. I only opened the credit account to help improve my credit score and had all intentions of closing the account before it renews due to the high annual membership fee. November is when the account renews - just in time for the huge commission check.

As Greg and I were talking about this on the way down to Waldorf I mentioned that with the amount of money we’re going to spend on paying off the credit card (about $400), we could buy a Nintendo Wii and a few games, which he acknowledged before I did. Oh, the joys of being responsible adults…

Greg and I talking a lot on the way down to Waldorf, especially since we took route 301 all the way down which meant we had a lot of stop lights and slow drivers. Mainly, we talked about our wedding ideas. What brought this on was that I have received a few fliers in the mail about wedding expo’s and other things. Greg was looking at the one I received about the Harbour Cruises and the prices. Greg has been engaged twice and only once did the wedding planning go into place. Greg was telling me about a few of the things discussed with his ex and the prices they were told and such. Keep in mind, their wedding was going to be over 100 people whereas our wedding may have 50 - tops. So my argument with the Harbour Cruise was that it was all inclusive, including an open bar (where Greg and his ex were told it would be around $3,000 for an open bar), wedding cake and all foods and Greg was thinking that we could do something better and cheaper. I disagreed with him and continued to try and explain my point of view as to why I disagree but I don’t think I was clear with my reasons.

Which brought up another conversation about his ex and the wedding they were planning. I asked him if he liked the plans of their wedding and he replied with “yes and no” and the reason to the yes was because he felt that he hadto like it because it was what he needed to feel. Greg’s previous engagements were something he felt he needed to do for the status of where he was in life and age (more so with his first fiancee). I’ve asked Greg if he felt the same with me, meaning he feels he needs to marry me because he’s nearly 30 years old and that we have a baby and he said no. As I’ve mentioned before, Greg’s feelings for me are deeper and stronger than he’s ever felt for someone before, and my feelings for Greg are the same; I’ve never been in love before or had feelings so deep and strong. These feelings for Greg freaked me out a little when I first realized them. Maybe that is why I am getting a little excited about the wedding Greg and I are going to have and how and when Greg is going to propose to me; what Greg and I have is real and something you only read about or see on those eHarmony commercials - we knew that after we met we had developed a strong connection that neither of us felt for anyone else before, and no matter how hard we tried to ignore what we felt for each other neither of us could not be together.

Weird what fate does to people.

I had so much fun last night!

The WIC appointment was really quick, for once, and I was out before 6pm.

I was at Arundel Mills by 6:05pm and headed through Bed, Bath, and Beyond (love the beyond stuff) on my way to Lane Bryant.

Lane Bryant had a really good sale going on and everything I bought was 50% off the ticketed price! I was in the store for about 20 minutes and bought five tops and two Capri’s. I didn’t see/find any skirts that I liked. The only downside to the trip was that I couldn’t find any pants or Capri’s that I like that were in my size; they were either too big or too small, so the one pair that I bought is about two sizes too big, but it has a belt/sash that I can use to make sure they stay up. When Greg arrived, I was already checking out. My total came to $94.00 and that was including a donation to some organization (I forget the name). Greg was impressed with my ability to go in and find what I like and leave, and that included trying on clothes!

After Lane Bryant, we headed over to Chevy’s for dinner. We ran into someone, the manager, who used to work at the company that Greg works for (since he was wearing the company shirt/uniform) and they chatted for a few minutes while I went to the table. Dinner was alright. The wings were great, but my meal wasn’t what I was expecting. I should have paid attention to the description of the item I ordered.

After Chevy’s, we stopped in FYE to see if they had The Transformer’s Movie, they did and we bought it.

After FYE, we headed over to Carter’s to shop for Amelia. Carter’s is a hit or miss when it comes to their clothing and prices. We looked around and bought three pairs of pants (one being overalls), and seven onsies, all in the nine month size. I did find that their selection was a little on the lacking side, but we were able to spend $55.00 without any problems.

After Carter’s, we headed over to The Children’s Place to see what they had. Their selection was even worse! But, I did find a nice little sweater cardigan for Amelia to wear in the mornings. Even Greg liked it, a lot. And, it was on sale from $14.99 to $4.99! Also, I found an adorable holiday dress that I would like for Amelia to wear for photos. It’s red checkers with black, gray, and white with a black bow on the waist. I found red tights to match and cute little black Mary Jane’s (just have to choose between shiny or matte) and thought about putting a nice red bow in her hair. She is going to look like a doll! I didn’t get any of the items because I want to talk to my cousin April about doing pictures for the Holidays first (to see if we want to do coordinating dresses; matching dresses, etc).

Finally, after The Children’s Place, we headed home. It was after 9pm when we left. We were shopping for three hours! When we got home, I did a little fashion show for Greg and he liked all the items I bought and stated, again, that he was impressed with the deals and time of my shopping spree! I am such a smart shopper.

Once I was done with the fashion show, I watched a little TV. There wasn’t anything on the network channels, so I headed over to Comedy Central and watched South Park for an hour. It has been a long time since I’ve watched this show (one episode a couple weeks ago doesn’t count since I used to watch this religiously). The episode at 10:30 was good! Hilarious even!! Greg and I were laughing so much, though mainly Greg. I am looking forward to Drawn Together tonight. After South Park, I headed for my shower while Greg put on Transformers. We watched the movie until midnight, with Greg skipping through the movie.

My sleep wasn’t that good last night. I kept waking up thinking I’ve overslept yet I didn’t want to look at the clock (my cell phone). Plus, I was having some pretty odd dreams; one being that of a nightmare sort. Sadly, I don’t remember the details.

Last night, on the way home from Arundel Mills, I called my Mom to check on Amelia and to tell her about the deals and clothes that I bought. Mom then goes on to say something along the lines of “See, you’re doing fine!” referring to Greg and me, or just me, keeping Amelia and being able to support her and my, or our, self. This time last year, without knowing, I was about 25-27 weeks pregnant; I was fighting bronchitis with no health insurance and I just started at a new job. October was a rough month for me, unbeknownst what I was going to experience in January! I shared with my Mom all the worries, concerns, thoughts, feelings, emotions, etc that I had when I told her in December that I was pregnant and felt that I wasn’t going to be able to provide all that Amelia would need, on all levels. So, it’s such an odd feeling to remember all the anxiety and fears I had last year and to see where I am now; very, very, odd feeling.

Yesterday, Greg and I headed up to Cockeysville/Hunt Valley. Greg used to live and work up there and that is where Adam lived when we were dating (and his family still lives up there). So, we’re both pretty familiar with the area. It’s always an odd feeling when we go up there. So many places have changed - like the new Target (I remember when they were braking ground for the store), the bank that used to be a Friendly’s, the whole Hunt Valley Mall is pretty much a memory since it’s been completely redone and built up and put in a Wigwams! I remember when the movie theater was built and the Wal-Mart. It’s like visiting an area that you spent so much time in only to see that it’s not what you remember.

Greg drove by his old job, MicroProse. The company has been out of business for many years. I asked Greg as we pulled up to the suite if it was weird for him and he said yes. His early 20’s were spent at this company with his two best friends (which Greg was living with as well) and those times were probably some of his happiest memories. I’m still trying to get Greg to contact Jeff and Doug for a get together but time is always against us.

Anyway, back to the trip to the farm!

I love Valley View Farms! This place is so much fun to explore. Greg and I were there for about 2 hours just walking around and taking pictures. I asked Greg if we wanted to get a pumpkin and he said no because we have no where to put it and I told him that we have a completely empty balcony! He still said no. Then I asked if we wanted to get some fall mums or pansies and again  he said no because he thinks that we’ll kill them. I confirmed with my Mom that they would survive the winter because that’s what they do and he still said no. He would rather wait until spring. I then told him that he’s not being any fun.

But, we continued with looking at the pumkins and the varieties of pumpkins and then we wondered over to the largest pumkin ever. This pumkin weighed 1,086 pounds!

Afterwards we walked inside and was looking around the place. They had both Christmas and Halloween decorations out, truly any childs delight (anticipation of trick-or-treating and then Christmas).  Of course, Greg was acting like a kid and set off each and every animated toy:

I had to walk away.

Then I noticed a sign to come this way… so I did and it was to the Haunted Tunnel! I had to go through. It sounded pretty scary from the outside. So, Greg and I walk through and it was ok… then it got a little more involved and I actually jumped at one of the attractions. It was done very well! Here are a few pictures:

It was the skeleton shaking the bars that got me.

After the Halloween displays and Haunted Tunnel, we went inside and walked through the shops. We first stopped at the Yankee Candle display and probably sniffed every jar. I took pictures of the ones we liked to remember as a possible Christmas gift for Greg. Then we went over to the miniature village displays, which is always entertaining to look at. Then we looked at all the Christmas tree’s and decorations, and ornaments, and lights, and stockings… everything. We decided to buy a special ornament for Amelia - a baby’s first that is a photo frame, and we tried to find a special ornament for Greg and I since this will be our first Christmas as a couple and living together, but we didn’t find anything that really stood out. But, I did find a really detailed saddle for my Mom. Greg and I walked out with two ornaments and a couple of sachets for that holiday aroma.

After Valley View Farms, we stopped at Charcoal Deli where Greg ordered his usual (a mess of a hamburger) and we ate at the picnic table.

Once dinner was done, we headed home but stopped off at his Mom’s first to get a few things. We hung out for a few minutes and then headed to the grocery store for our shopping. We did pretty good.

Today, we’re going to head into Baltimore Harbour and then finish off the few items left on our errands.

I have mixed emotions about today’s events.

I’ve spent a majority of the morning and afternoon working on this post for Amelia’s blog. I’m not completely satisfied with the way it turned out so I may edit it later. It’s been pretty steady at work so my focus was constantly interrupted.

Greg and I have exchanged a few emails and phone calls about the events of the paycheck and what to do. He’s tossed around the idea of going to Baltimore Harbour Place and hanging out there and maybe going to the Maryland Science Center (since I’ve been wanting to go for years). But, my heart is/was still set for Ocean City. I’m thinking that we’ll just do the day trip (we now get to decide what day to go - thinking it will be Sunday for the brunch at Fenwick Inn) and just go to have fun before the holidays kick in and the colder weather. Maybe on Monday we’ll hang out in Baltimore and visit the local tourist spots just for the hell of it. It’s going to be hard NOT TO get out and do something with the beautiful weather that is ‘predicted’ (I never trust the meteorologists in Maryland)  for this weekend.

Other than that the day has been uneventful-ish. It’s been steady and I am racking up the retention ratio for my October commissions (which will hopefully be paid on time) so that is good.

I took another trip down memory lane was was reading more events of 2005/2006. It’s such a weird feeling to do that. It’s not bad, but it brings up a lot of emotions from back then and I feel a little blue at times.

But, I have Amelia’s check-up tomorrow morning to look forward to. I am dying to know how much she weighs and how tall she is. Not too excited about the shots as it will make her a little irritable for Mom. Also, I am curious if she’s starting to go though seperation anxiety and her leaving with Mom will give me an idea.

Not feeling so happy today.

Feeling irritated; angry; sad and depressed; and lonley of all things.

I took a trip down memory lane and read a lot of my blog entries from back in 2004/2005. I am still trying to figure out if it was a good trip or a bad trip.

I am sure I’ve been short with customers on the phone; very argumentive (and trying to hold in the urge to yell at customers) at times.

Since “IT” has packed up and left, I am wondering if my mood has anything to do with it. Normally, I’m not effected when “IT” is over - but this cycle has been completely different than any of the more recent ones.

Yet, I don’t feel I have anything to be irritated (well, I do sorta) about, or angry, sad, depressed, and lonely about.

This one is going to be tricky to try and figure out.

Well, “IT” is here; had a little pre-party with my body yesterday too! I’m am just not feeling well today. This “IT” has really hit me hard. The headaches and dizzy spells; the cramping and squeezing; the over all feeling of being ‘blah’; ugh - and there is nothing I can do for it but wait it out.

I feel so exhausted and drained of energy. I know this is all due to “IT” but in the past I’ve never felt this exhausted!

Also, I’m sure this has some to do with all the stress Adam is giving me due to being a complete moron and not knowing how to properly sign a simple form.  I was so angry last night when I looked over the forms and saw that he didn’t sign where he needs to; but rather than call the court house for help, he decided to sign under my name. That is such an idiotic thing to do! If you don’t know - you ask! How hard is that?

I am thankful that work has finallyslowed down; mostly due to more people assisting us in the marketing department. But, I am pretty much done with talking to New Jersey people. The way they talk on the phone annoys me to no end - their habits are practically every pet peeve I have for phone manners and grammar. Mainly, I get so annoyed when they say “yous” for everything; “Yous sent me this..” or “Yous never told me that…” and “I got a letter from yous…”

I’m thinking about going hom early. I haven’t called out sick or left early from work since last October. I hate leaving early; I feel like I am quitting.

Poor Greg, he’s having a bad day; although not because of work but because of something in his past. All he wants is a quiet year - a year where he doesn’t have to worry about ‘it’ (not to be confused with my “IT”).  I feel bad for him; he was screwed in 2004. But, in time, this will pass and everything will be in the past and then we won’t have to worry about it anymore.

I can not wait until this cycle starts and ends! Last night I was in an argumentive mood (not the whole night, just for about two hours). I was a little cold with Greg on a few conversations; but that all went away by the time we went to bed. Plus I’ve been having more headaches lately and some episodes of light headed-ness.

Lisa called me last night; she’s received her employment packet and is going to start on the 15th! Pitty I won’t be here on her first day (I will be in Delaware), but she is excited as all hell! She says she can’t stop smiling and her happiness shows where she’s currently working and her co-workers are commenting. Someone else who used to work with Lisa and me at PRP works with Lisa; this person we never thought highly of - only because she is so lazy when it comes to work and doing her job. Lisa and I have very high work ethics and this person does not. Anyway, when this person, we’ll call her ’N', found out that Lisa was leaving the company and coming to work with me, ‘N’ became all pissy and jealous, according to Lisa. ‘N’ told Lisa that she was going to submit her resume to here and try to get a job. Lisa and I both laughed and both agreed that we would not recommend ‘N’ to anyone who asked at this place. Besides, this place doesn’t usually hire directly - they go through temp services; it’s just on rare occassions they ask current employees if we know of anyone to refer. Thus began the reunion of Lisa and Jess as co-workers once more!

This Sunday is the October Ralston Social Club and instead of it being in the afternoon, it’s going to be in the morning for a brunch! And, all brunch items will be cooked on the grill! I believe Greg signed us up for pancakes. I am looking forward to this event.

The Condo Guy wrote us back last night and informed us that he’s ordered a new washer/dryer through Best Buy (a place I suggested). As of yet, I have no idea when it’s going to arrive. Hopefully this weekend, preferrably on Saturday. And, hopefully this experiance will be much better than that with Sears. What a nightmare Sears was!

I just realized that Greg and I don’t have any plans this Saturday. We don’t have to run any errands (as of yet); no family event to attend; no party hosting; no deliveries or installations (as of yet); etc. So weird!

Oh! Get this; Brooke is leaving the company (where Greg and her husband, Tim, work). Brooke is a graphic artist. In the department, it’s just her and one other - some guy - which is the reason she’s seeked employment else where. Brooke’s last day is the 11th, a Thursday. She wants to take the 12th, a Friday, off to have a day to get ready for the new job since she starts on the 15th. Well, the other graphic artist asked Brooke if she would work on that Friday so HE could have that day off! Can you believe that!?! Brooke said no.

This week, even though it’s Wednesday, has flown by! The time at work is moving quickly which makes the week move quickly!

Tonight is the season finale of Top Chef, which means it’ll be another late night of TV watching for us.  Lately, we’ve been staying up late watching TV. We haven’t gone to bed before 11pm in nearly a week; which is unusual for us, or at least me.

Well, I’ve delayed this posting long enough. I don’t think there is anything else I can write about for now…

Oh yeah - Greg killed my curiosity - it’s a no. I understand his reasoning but my argument is that it isn’t like we don’t know of each other and such! Oh well.

Work is providing the office with lunch today - yay!

It’s pay day - yay!

It’s Friday - yay!

I am feeling pretty damn good today. Especially since my check was MORE than I was expecting and it didn’t include my commissions from August (the commissions will be in the next check). My employer treats me so well!

Amelia was so sleepy last night. She was falling asleep in my lap as I was talking to my Mom. She was being as cute as could be… sucking her thumb as she lay her head on my chest. Aww…

Mom is going to watch Amelia from Oct 13 - 20. Greg and I are thinking of taking a few days off to do a little local traveling and go to Hagerstown for some clothes shopping.

This weekend is going to be spent doing small errands (Costco’s, Target, and Alcohol Store), having the cable installed in our bedroom, and going to Centennial Park in Columbia. Fall is starting to show it’s colors and Greg and I want to get some pictures. I mentioned before that I am thinking of creating a Christmas Card for this holiday and I want to make the card a collection of this past year in pictures. I guess I should get started with that… plus I want to take Amelia to a photo-shoot place and get some new pictures done and maybe some with all three of us. I know my Mom wants to get some pictures taken of Amelia and Olivia together for the holiday. Ugh! So much to think about!! Though, it is exciting!!!

Ok, who else watched Ugly Bettylast night? That episode was great - I was all excited to see that Santos survived the shooting and then BOOM! it was just a tease!!! I actually cried when it showed that he didn’t make it (could blame it on the hormones). I was so happy to see Henry get off the bus AFTER Betty finally started to move on. I am so hooked on that show! Greg, for some unknown reason, doesn’t seem to care about it. I may be able to get him into it later… like many other shows (Scrubs, Top Chef, Hell’s Kitchen, Heroes).

After Ugly Betty, Greg and I talked about our trip next summer to Seattle and all the places that we want to see. Greg actually had an itinerary! We’re definitely buying the Seattle City Pass and the Go Seattle Card although some attractions overlap (I’m leaning more for the Go Seattle Card). We are looking to be in the Seattle, North Bend OR., area for 15 days and have a budget of about $3500.00 (including travel, room and board, and food). I am trying to get over the budget thing. I, personally, have never spent that much money on anything in a 2 week time span. I have a hard time spending money on unnessary things (mainly things for myself). I work hard for my money, as does Greg and everyone else out there, and I have a hard time of letting go I suppose. I remember when Greg and I went to Atlantic City in March 2006 - I had $150 for play money and after $40 of ‘gambling’ I stopped because there was no way in hell I was going to waste the rest of my money; I was working two jobs at that time and could use the left over for many other things.

Last night I had some pretty interesting dreams. The main dream was of my wedding. I remember the dress I wore (which was pretty nice) and the rings. I remember my cousin April being my bridesmaid and my Mom taking care of Amelia. There were a few odd things about the dream, though I can’t remember the details at this moment. But mainly, I remember the rings. My engagement ring was a three stone ring in white gold or platinum and the wedding band was a ring of many little diamonds in the band. I remember thinking that I really liked how they looked together. I told this to Greg this morning and he didn’t really have a response.

I’ve killed a good bit of my afternoon looking at engagement rings (when I was assisting with a customer). I am going to post the ones I like next. Any feedback would be fun!